It's been 10 days since I left my unborn son..or rather he left us. for nobody knows what reasons. I am still trying to come to terms with this loss. Not sure why it happened to us, what wrong did we do, and what was his fault.

Sometimes I think maybe I didn't wish him to come, maybe I was not ready to become father, or maybe I wouldn't have been able to give him enough care and concern. This is all just mugging me up every moment. Life goes on, but one life that mattered to us is no more. I cried and cried silently. Just couldn't say anything to anyone. I did not even see him. My wife, she too was inconsolable. She told me it was a healty looking boy, maybe blue-eyed. Had long limbs. Fair. Developed.

We used to call it "pappu", made fun of him when he wouldn't wiggle when I touch her tummy. I had plans to give him the best possible care. Thought he will get everything that I didn't. Now...everything is gone.